Redefining The Girl Inside Me – Part 1

Hi, all. This is Rony here. I am a 23-year-old cross-dresser from Kerala. I had shared my gay life experience on Indian Gay Site which happened when I was 20 a few years back. I am sharing the link for those who haven’t read that. (https://www.indiangaysite.com/stories/meeting-yahoo-uncle-3-ultimate-group-sex/)

After my first partner went to US, I had a guilty feeling for trying gay sex. I thought of giving a break as I needed to decide whether it’s right of wrong. I decided to go to the gym and try to make my body fit.

My boobs and ass with my chubby body structure were my biggest temptation to cross dress and make me feel like a girl. I went to Ernakulum after my B-tech and did some courses. I also consulted a doctor for my hair loss as I have started losing my hair at an alarming rate.

I took many medicines and injections to control my hair fall. I hoped for the best.

After a year I was able to lose almost 15 kg. I lost my big stomach but other things were still the same. My body was still soft like a cotton and boobs and ass got prominent as the stomach got reduced. And to make things worse I had lost the hair on the center portion and I became almost bald.

I used to come to hostel from home on Sunday night so that I can enter the class on 9 in the morning. One day I reached Ernakulam stand by 12 PM and I had to walk to my hostel which is almost 1.5 km away.

While I was walking out of the bus stand, I noticed 2-3 ladies, dressed in sari and with a good amount of makeup and all. I was sure that they were not waiting for bus or auto. Then I tried to walk near them so that I can have a good look. Then I was amazed to discover that they were not just ladies but Hijras.

They were waiting for customers. For that very moment I wished if I could be someone among them dress like them and wait for customers and get paid for satisfying the customers. I didn’t have the courage to go near them.

While I was walking to my hostel I was thinking about them. No girls will like someone like me. No girls will be ready to marry someone who is completely bald at the age of 28-30 and look like an uncle. So if god created me like this then why should I restrict myself from being a Crossdresser. It’s the only thing that I can do to satisfy myself with the things that god gave me. I entered the hostel room with a new mind.

I created a new profile on Planetromeo (ID : ronycdkerala) as I had deleted the previous account and started the hunt for my partner. I was looking for a top above 35 who would love to treat me as a girl and love to try bit kinky and dirty things with me. As it is difficult to find someone with all these I was greatly disappointed. I decided to continue my search.

I ordered a Bra, rose bikini and a camisole from Myntra as I had burnt all my old dresses. I used to wear it in my room and also at home when am alone.

One Friday evening, I was about to leave my room to catch my train to home, I felt very horny. A naughty idea came to my mind wear the panties today and go home. No one will notice and I will get the pleasure of wearing a pantie in public. I didn’t rethink, wore the panties and made sure that it is not visible in my jeans and T-shirt.

Then I hurried to the railway station and boarded the train in the general compartment. I got a single seat next to the window.

I then noticed my co-passenger sitting opposite to me. An uncle of age 40- 45 well dressed. He had a big tummy and was tall. So he looked bit gigantic. I took my earphones from my bag and stood up to keep the bag above me where luggage are usually kept.

I started listening to my favorite songs. I was trying to analyze the uncle opposite to me. I was trying to analyze him and every time I was checking him, he caught me staring at him red handed.

After some time he replied me with a smile when our eyes met. He then asked me some water as he had seen the bottle of water in my bag. I happily took the bottle without taking the bag from there and gave him. He happily took the bottle and he took some medicines and drank the water.

I then kept the bottle inside the bag and settled down on my seat. He thanked me and asked me where I am going.And we started a small chat. He is an Engineer in Electricity board and he was headed back to his home at Karunagapally. He also asked me about my job and stay. I told him that I work in an IT firm and I am going back home.

He then moved bit closer to me and said softly ‘You have a nice pantie inside’. I was shocked to hear that.

I then realized he must have seen my rose bikini when I stood up and took the bottle. I didn’t know what to say. He said it is okay dear no need to be afraid and he will not tell anybody. He asked me whether I have bra also inside and I replied no. He said there’s nothing wrong in it as I have nice ass and boobs. I started feeling comfortable with him and fear was turning into curiosity.

As there were no people around us, we were having enough privacy to talk. He asked me about how it started and all and replied that I love to be like a girl, wearing ladies inner wear.

It started when I saw my aunty in bra and panties when I was in 8th standard and I started collecting ads of lady’s inner wear. And one day when I was alone at home I tried my mom’s bra and panties.

He asked me whether I used to wear saree and churidars. I told I had tried saree one when an uncle I met online asked me to wear it on cam.I told him about my experience with him how he treated me like a wife and why I took a break and why I started again. He was kind of making me comfortable and I trusted him like I know him for years.

I asked him about his experience and interest. He told that he like young chubby boys, and had been with many boys love to treat them like a girl. He also told me that he is very dominant on the bed and want to try things that he can’t try with his wife but it’s very hard to find someone who likes all that.

He asked me whether I have Planetromeo account and I said yes and shared the same. He checked my account and he saw my pics in my account. He said I am looking very hot in bra and panties. I smiled shyly.

He then checked my interests. He was amazed to see my profile as it was everything he wanted. ‘You are a real slut’ he said. I didn’t say anything I was just smiling with shyness. He then asked me whether I have any porn on mobile. I said yes and he told me to show them.

We then moved to the other seats for three people so that we can sit together and watch. I opened my gallery and showed him the clips I had. Almost all of them were desi girls giving blow jobs. We both were watching them together with headphones.

We both were very getting very horny. One girl was sucking a black cock very passionately, inserting tongue into the piss hole and licking the balls and the skin around the balls.She then moved further down till she reached the asshole and started rimming the asshole.

She inserted her tongue into the hole and licked the hairy ass hole without any hesitation. ‘She is a perfect slut’ he complimented and praised her skills and interests.

By that time we were sitting very close and our body were in touch. He then took my hand and placed it on his thighs. I told him it’s very risky as if anyone sees everything will be finished. He took his bag and kept it on his lap so that no one can see that. I slowly started to rub his thighs. He was enjoying it.

I then moved my hands towards his cock. It was erect and hard as a rock. I started massaging it over his pants. It went for more than 10 mins then the train was about to reach Alappuzha and he moved to opposite seat.

Only a few people were near us when the train left Alappuzha. He then asked me to come near the door and he then stood up and walked near the door.

To avoid getting noticed, I followed him after few mins and he was waiting near the toilet. He then asked for a blowjob and show him how slutty I am. I was getting very excited as I haven’t had a cock for a long time. He then entered the toilet and after that, I entered after making sure that no one is watching.

He then locked the door and I sat on the closet and opened his zip. I smelled his cock and it was amazing. He then loosened the belt and unhooked the pants I could see a huge bulge. I started licking his cock over the underwear. I could tell that it was huge.

After few mins, I took the cock out and I was like wow! It was so huge. Without any delay, I took the cock in my mouth. There was odor of urine and sweat but I was loving it. I started sucking it with great passion. I inserted m tongue into the piss hole and he gave a moan. I put half of the cock into my mouth and my mouth was full.

I then rolled my tongue over the head. He was enjoying it. He then pushed my head towards him and the cock was pushed into my throat. It was a great feeling. After few seconds he took the hand and I took a breath.

He then asked me and told me to remove my pants. I unhooked my pants showed him my bikini panties. He asked me to turn around and gave me a hard slap on my ass and inserted his hand inside. He tried inserting his finger into the ass hole. It was feeling great.

He then inserted the hands in my T-shirt and started crushing my boobs. He pinched my nipples and I am sure it had turned red as my nipples are very sensitive.

Then he told me to make him cum like a nice slut. I was then back to my position and started working with my mouth. And in few mins, he shot hot cum into my mouth and lips. It felt little salty. All of a sudden he took a pic of my cum filled mouth so that he can put it on Planetromeo.

He then asked me to swallow it. I swallowed a whole load of cum like an obedient slut. I then sucked the cock again to get the last drop of cum.

He then asked me to move as he want to piss and after he finished pissing I gave the last suck I could taste his piss which was oozing out from the cock. He was very happy and asked me if he needs to help me cum. I said no and he left the toilet and then I closed the door and played with my cock and it took less than one minute.

I then washed my mouth and sat near him. He showed me the pic that he took. He complimented that I am a real slut and want to fuck me like one. I said I am all yours. We then shared mobile numbers and discussed our likes and dislikes. He said he has a room at Ernakulam where he stays and I can come there and enjoy.

I agreed and can fix a date next time. He was about to leave at Karunagapally and he said we should definitely meet again. I said sure.And our next meeting will be another part. Forgive me for the errors and do give me feedback on my mail ID [email protected]